Not Good Enough

The more I think about it, the more I realize that the thing that causes me the most grief, the thing that triggers my depression most often, is the feeling that I'm not good enough. I'm not good enough to make people like me. I'm not good enough to be loved. I'm not good enough to make everyone happy. I'm not good enough to make things right. I'm not good enough to win. I know I'm not good enough, so why should I even try? In my head I know it isn't true, but my heart rarely listens to my head. I just want to be good, but I always fall short. I know that Jesus loves me despite my failure to be good, and I know that my husband loves me, as well, but I don't love me. I'm not good enough to love.